This is not just some portrait. I'm posting this together with a little story.
I want the world to know how much I love this girl and how amazing she is.
I was always a quiet kid and had little friends. I was always scared to talk to people and my social skills were like -4000.
I wasn't on the internet much, except for reading manga and watching anime, or other things. I didn't really like using the internet.
My past is kinda shit and I've always had setbacks and things, and people kept pushing me down every time I tried to get up.
At some point I stopped caring, I stopped caring about getting back up, about if I'm hurt or not. I didn't give a single fudge any more.
One day, I was roaming about on the internet and I decided to create a Twitter account. It was a DBZ RolePlay account.
Only a few days in and I already made lots of friends and I was kinda getting happy.
Then at some point I came across this girl. I liked talking to her and she made me feel special and happy. She made me feel like I had a purpose.
I remembered that I liked her from the moment I started talking to her. But I wasn't sure about the situation, because I didn't want to be in a relationship back then and I was in a place that I never imagined myself ever getting with anyone.
But dang, did that change fast when I saw this girl. Beautiful eyes, and a lovely smile that made my heart melt..
We kept talking and somehow, without asking her out or vice versa, it turned into a relationship.
As we kept talking, both of us were still unsure because we never saw each other and never heard each other's voices.
That as well changed fast. We began to Skype call every day and we started becoming more of a real bf/gf relationship than just an internet love.
We both didn't like the idea of distance and Internet love, let alone the 730 miles that separated us, but I loved her so much, distance was just a small word to me.
December, 2012, I finally got to meet her. It was an amazing 7 days.
Summer, 2013, we met up again. The best 5 weeks of my entire life.
She's made me believe in love, she made me believe I had a purpose, she made me feel happy, she made me change.
We have been through things together, good and bad, and she would always cheer me up just by smiling and.. existing.
She's changed my life from boring, meaningless and useless to happy, wonderful and full of pleasure and love.
I owe her my life and then some. I love her beyond any words could ever express.
And with that, I'll end my story.
I love you, Alanna.